Support NeoGAF

[Power Pro]

I've been wanting to go to Japan a lot and talking to my coworkers about it all the time but like spending the money to go there and it being for just a week or 2 just seems pointless to me right now. I tested myself last week and I don't have covid, but I've been sick for nearly 2 weeks. You are older than me by one year and the only reason I see light in my life is the aim to save money so I can travel/live in Asia for awhile and maybe try be a digital nomad. First, I'm going to overcome this Japanese language learning that has become my obsession and barrier for so long!

Oh yeah, physically I'm a tad bit overweight, currently sick but overall good. Mentally I'm good. Emotionally I'm empty since I only use my emotions when watching tv shows/ movies, and anime (kinda feel dead inside sometimes) and spiritually I'm also empty since I haven't really been pursuing that side in a long long time. So overall I'd say I feel pretty empty/ drained and a bit lost, but I'm okay.

I was only in Japan for about 2 weeks my first time, and I'd do all over again. Every minute there felt like a blessing, even when I got sick. I remember when I was on the plane, and the land of Japan came into view the first time. I was in tears, because I was like "I finally made it". I just wish I had more time to see more places. I'm like you, I do want to live there instead in the long term, but I am unsure if it'll ever happen. I do have somethings in the works to maybe make it a reality someday, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up.

I do think the cost of going there for a trip always seems intimidating, but it's not that bad, you just got to be smart and plan right, especially when you're a solo traveler. I have traveled to US cities like New York a couple times, and just going there for 2 days was outrageously expensive. I could've spent a week in Japan for what I paid in New York for a couple days. The most expensive part is the airfare, but after that, hotels seemed reasonably priced, and food was at the time too. It's so nice that they don't have a tipping culture, and the prices weren't any more expensive than what'd you see on a menu in the US.

I spent a long time trying to overcome learning Japanese also. I knew a little when I went there, so i was able to say some basic stuff, but in the years since then, I just haven't been able to concentrate and learn more. Let me know if you want to be study buddies, heh.

I feel like I can relate to your emotional and spiritual things as well. My parents never reenforced any religious beliefs in me, so I don't really have any. I've basically come up in my head that most religion is just made up bull shit that men in power created, that if there is a god, then it's unknowable. I think that's because I'm just too rational for my own good. That's one downfall I guess for being so fascinated by science. Spirituality becomes harder to believe in.

 

[NahaNago]

I was only in Japan for about 2 weeks my first time, and I'd do all over again. Every minute there felt like a blessing, even when I got sick. I remember when I was on the plane, and the land of Japan came into view the first time. I was in tears, because I was like "I finally made it". I just wish I had more time to see more places. I'm like you, I do want to live there instead in the long term, but I am unsure if it'll ever happen. I do have somethings in the works to maybe make it a reality someday, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up.

I do think the cost of going there for a trip always seems intimidating, but it's not that bad, you just got to be smart and plan right, especially when you're a solo traveler. I have traveled to US cities like New York a couple times, and just going there for 2 days was outrageously expensive. I could've spent a week in Japan for what I paid in New York for a couple days. The most expensive part is the airfare, but after that, hotels seemed reasonably priced, and food was at the time too. It's so nice that they don't have a tipping culture, and the prices weren't any more expensive than what'd you see on a menu in the US.

I spent a long time trying to overcome learning Japanese also. I knew a little when I went there, so i was able to say some basic stuff, but in the years since then, I just haven't been able to concentrate and learn more. Let me know if you want to be study buddies, heh.

I feel like I can relate to your emotional and spiritual things as well. My parents never reenforced any religious beliefs in me, so I don't really have any. I've basically come up in my head that most religion is just made up bull shit that men in power created, that if there is a god, then it's unknowable. I think that's because I'm just too rational for my own good. That's one downfall I guess for being so fascinated by science. Spirituality becomes harder to believe in.

The most I've ever stayed in Japan is 10 days, because I missed my plane, I decided to stay 3 more days. I underestimated how long the train took to get the airport. Maybe I took an express train to Tokyo and a more leisure train back to the airport. I honestly don't realistically see myself ever being able to live there but I do think I could pop there for a couple months out of the year eventually. I mostly just see myself living in like Thailand, Vietnam, or the Philippines. Maybe bouncing around between countries in that area.

Still debating if I'm going to go to Japan cause it isn't that expensive but I feel like I could use that money to stay in one of the southern Asian countries for a lot longer. Plus, I'm supposed to be saving for the much longer stay in Asia. I haven't been to Kyoto and Osaka yet.

I'm pretty sure I'm studying Japanese wrong but I like the way I study it. I've been studying nearly every day ,and I'll use this wrong method for 2 more months most likely. How would we go about being study buddies? (The wrong method is using romanji even though I want to read Japanese)
Currently I've been mostly trying to learn the vocab from Japanese songs from like anime, Ayumi Hamasaki, citypop song, and eventually Hikaru Utada.

Most of my family is fairly religious and my mom bugs me about going to church whenever I'm around her. I'm kinda surprised all of my brothers haven't hounded me to go to church since I'm pretty sure they've all preached sermons at one time.

Need sleep been awake 27 hours.

 

[JimmyRustler]

I'm fine I'd day. I live a rather uneventful life but for the most part I acutally love it. I go to work and do a reasonably good job (I think), come home, hit the gym and then read and game in the evening. I can't wait for my next holidays... where I'll be doing the exact same things, only more of it. Meaning, more sports, more reading, more gaming. This Christmas I was bascially doing the same things every day for two weeks straight and loved every minute of it. I train my body (gym), train my mind (read) and get some enjoyment (gaming).

I do have my dark days but I guess we all do. Physically I've never felt or looked better.

Sometime I do wonder though where my life is going. 38 now, no wife, no kids. I know I could do a lot more on my job but I just don't see a point in it. For what? More money? I don't need it. Status? Has no appeal whatsoever for me.

I feel like having a good wife and kids would help me be more ambitous (for them) but I can't seem to find anyone even remotely appealing. But then again, me being so unambitios is probably a real downer for a lot of women I presume. So it's a bit of a conundrum I guess.

Dunno... maybe God has some plans for me yet. Will see. I just try to live as stressfree as possible and be a better human being every day. Be kind to everyone, not piss off or stress out anybody. I believe that if I live this way, life will take me to my best possible outcome. Maybe this is even it.

 

[DeafTourette]

I did something I have never done before... I quit my job. The anxiety was getting to me and having to suppress my tics made it nearly impossible to not have episodes... And I DID have one last week. I tendered in my resignation yesterday. I had to for my mental health.

 

[NecrosaroIII]

Honestly, kind of bad. I'm going through a midlife crisis right now and trying to prevent myself from ruining a life that I actually am proud of and love, with a great partner whom I adore. But I don't feel that way right now. It's like there is a seperation between what I think and what I feel, and reconciling it is a mother fucker.

 

[NecrosaroIII]

I feel like having a good wife and kids would help me be more ambitous (for them) but I can't seem to find anyone even remotely appealing. But then again, me being so unambitios is probably a real downer for a lot of women I presume. So it's a bit of a conundrum I guess.

Take it from me man, a relationship is not a solution to your problems. In fact, any sort of mental issue you have will probably manifest itself in some pretty gnarly ways in a relationship. You gotta work on that shit before you get into a relationship, or else you're gonna have a hard time dealing with it while you're IN a relationship.

 

[DeafTourette]

Honestly, kind of bad. I'm going through a midlife crisis right now and trying to prevent myself from ruining a life that I actually am proud of and love, with a great partner whom I adore. But I don't feel that way right now. It's like there is a seperation between what I think and what I feel, and reconciling it is a mother fucker.

Take a break. Go on a mini staycation or vacation and do things you enjoy.

It sounds like you don't like that you're around your midlife. Trust me, it can be daunting... As I'm sure you know... It will take your mind off whatever horrible decision you're thinking of doing... As long as it isn't cheating on this great partner. Get your mind and heart back in sync. Some alone time and enjoyment will help. As well as talking with an impartial party... Like a therapist. I have to see mine tomorrow.

 

[Draugoth]

Currently fighting a infection since July 2024 that's on the path of becoming a superbug, the only antibiotics that work are poison to me for whatever reason,

I wouln't be desperate if i didn't had to go back to the office. So yeah, i'm in pretty bad shape sadly.

 

[Draugoth]

Currently fighting a infection caused by a bacteria that's on the path of becoming a superbug, the only antibiotics that work are poison to me for whatever reason, i wouln't be desperate if i didn't had to.

Recovering from severe tendinitis (too much GAF, perhaps).

Only now starting to be able to sleep without my hands going numb or crazy shooting pains. Slowly getting back to shredding on guitar.

I won't ever take my hands for granted again.

Fully understand, it suck absolute balls luckily it's cureable.

 

[Magister]

I'm getting fat af due to my remote job.
Now even more bad news, I got prescribed pretty nasty meds that gave me neuropathy. It still hasn't gone away after quitting. Imagine not feeling when you want to piss or when you touch things you feel nothing. I had even more severe case of neuropathy when my doctor prescribed shitty thyroid meds 8 years ago. Back then I couldn't even feel the taste of food. This time it was with OCD meds. It seems that doctors/psychiatrists still prescribe poison meds like candies. The hilarious thing, I feel emotional apathy and my OCD is gone even after quitting.

Now the good news. I may get a better paying job instead of being a freelancer. But I have little knowledge in the field I will work in. Maybe it will work out, maybe it won't.

 

[Days like these...]

Physically good, mentally good, spiritually doesn't not apply, emotionally not so good

 

[Blank Space Invader]

Thank you for this thread. One day I will post how I am. For now I will just say, lonely, unhappy, and unfulfilled.

 

[Draugoth]

I'm getting fat af due to my remote job.
Now even more bad news, I got prescribed pretty nasty meds that gave me neuropathy. It still hasn't gone away after quitting. Imagine not feeling when you want to piss or when you touch things you feel nothing. I had even more severe case of neuropathy when my doctor prescribed shitty thyroid meds 8 years ago. Back then I couldn't even feel the taste of food. This time it was with OCD meds. It seems that doctors/psychiatrists still prescribe poison meds like candies. The hilarious thing, I feel emotional apathy and my OCD is gone even after quitting.

Now the good news. I may get a better paying job instead of being a freelancer. But I have little knowledge in the field I will work in. Maybe it will work out, maybe it won't.

This, anti depressants made me fat (pobllem solved after quitting them and running 3km a day) but they also gave me permanent sleep apnea and bruxism, fluoxetine and other antidepressants are poison

 

[Heimdall_Xtreme]

I am a person who since I was a child had challenges and tragic and emotional situations, but they are obstacles that I managed to overcome... That I never gave up....

I think I matured quickly due to situations, challenges, tragedies or adult struggles I had from ages 5 to 18 and wasted a lot of my childhood.

That I always received envy from people but I managed to evade them, but then I regret that many things in my secondary or part of primary school I wanted to do experiences but they are times that will not return or that I should have taken advantage of those times or take advantage of the social issue, because I gave more importance to the issue of personal and academic improvement rather than the social issue.... But I currently overcame many obstacles and am in a job that only less than 10 percent of the country has.


Now I'm just looking for someone ideal, I'm not going to be with the first one I find.

 

[Just_one]

physically getting a belly which isnt good but i just cant find it in me to work out, between a 7am-7pm job to then arriving home , cook dinner and then have some time to do something like play a game or watch tv to relax i just cant find the time. Weekends are usually for wife time ,getting some rest , clean house and seeing family and friends...

emotionally,spiritually & mentally i think im good place , love my wife and love life so if i have health and my wife, fammily and friends , everything is great. still hate to work but gotta pay those bills and stuff

 

[Trilobit]

I'm in a rough spot because I'm pretty emotionally numb and have been for a long time. It's very frustrating because my memory and abstract thinking relies on me feeling so I feel nerfed in worklife. Hopefully I can fix it this year as I'm seeing a good psychiatrist.

We all in this thread play life on different difficulty levels and we're on different maps. But hopefully we can all find the princess in the end.

 

[Makoto-Yuki]

already posted in here but i am feeling better physically at the moment. not the fittest person but feeling good. have been cycling a lot. got some pains in my hip, knee, ribs but it comes and goes. need to do more walking and push myself to get back to swimming.

last week i was completely floored but the last few days been better. on new medication so hopefully that helps with the pain. started it last night and omg i was so fucking high. i can still feel the ache in my hip/knee/ribs but it's not bothering me. i had so much energy today. probably because i got one of the best sleeps in my life or in the last however many years.

the medication i started i am meant to take 1 tablet (yesterday), 2 today, and 3 tomorrow and every day after. as good as it was that shit was intense and i don't know if i can go through my day feeling like that. it's a good feeling but i don't think i could function. i'd only be able to sit about staring into space and wired to the moon.

 

[dark_chris]

It’s hard to put it in an orderly thought but I’ll try -
- physically alright but do have concerns about myself - I wake up coughing and gagging but that’s it. It’s an odd and new sensation that only happens in the mornings. I’m also starting to work out more as I’m overweight again.

- mentally - I’m not ok. My mom has lung cancer, my uncle passed away, my work performance has been going down, and I feel like I’ve developed anxiety and depression. I’ve got written up twice because of what I’m going through; I’ve lost focus often. I’m seeing a therapist now to help find that focus and trying to better myself. I get anxiety at work, mainly due to my previous job and my boss being a massive jackass that I’ve had my first anxiety attack ever. I think then it’s persisted. Now I’m anxious and nervous around any manager I have. Although we’ve been together for 10 years, I’ve felt as though my beloved deserves better than me and it’s a thing that’s always itched in the back of my head, but she’s always been extremely supportive and goes above and beyond for me. The feeling stems on how I feel messed up in the head.

 

[bundylove]

The pattern i notice here is that most people who deal with anxiety depression other mental health issues are predominantly left leaning liberals.

There is a huge lack of self respect and strength and rational thinking. Its an attitude issue.

I can tell you all about my issues but they arent issues as i solved them all on my own.

To give a mild example, i was doing infills and midway through i got told i have 8 months to live. I developed a severe mitral valve leak ans was basicaly dying away. From developing heart failure where is was drowning from all the back flow into my lungs to not able to even go up the stairs.
I was pushing my limits to finish my project as i had a lot of money in it and needed to list it. So do i die or do i go bankrupt? Big decission. Given i had a wife and a 3 year old i cant do either. I worked till the day of my surgery , completed enough to be able to list the property and still made it through surgery. But boy was i suffering for 6 months straight. Recovery was almost a year with rehab and other stuff. I went back to work within a month after surgery once again pushing my limits. Years later i am still ok.

I had many ups and downs but as i say its all an attitude issue. Yes there are things that you cant control with life and health but i see a lot of quiters. Quiting my job cuz i cant handle my anxiety? Thats weak.

I learned one thing in life. I am alone. And only i can help and save myself. I have to go through life on my own. Thats my challenge. And i always find a way cuz i trust myself i can overcome anything.

Doesnt matter what life throws at you. Its all about attitude

 

[simpatico]

Physically: Stronger than ever in my 40s. Hormone profile of an 18-year-old high school track and field athlete

Mentally: hanging on by a fucking thread, but that's how I like it.

Emotionally: completely full. I've got amazing kids, a decent wife and a great GF. What more can a guy ask for?

 

[bundylove]

Physically: Stronger than ever in my 40s. Hormone profile of an 18-year-old high school track and field athlete

Mentally: hanging on by a fucking thread, but that's how I like it.

Emotionally: completely full. I've got amazing kids, a decent wife and a great GF. What more can a guy ask for?

Wow wife AND a girlfriendM

 

[nkarafo]

Physically - 8/10
Mentally - 2/10
Emotionally - 0/10
Spiritually - ???

 

[Shubh_C63]

Physically (6/10)
Mentally (3/10)
Emotionally (7/10)
Spirituality (7/10) - Not really believe in such stuff. Everything is cosmic dust.

 

[Wheeljack539]

Anxiety had picked up again in January. Brother and I had to take our uncle to emergency as he was unresponsive. Spent 6 hours in that Emergency Room and ended up thinking too much and my uncle was diagnosed with two aortic aneurysms and then a week later another uncle had to go to the hospital. Put me into a depression thinking about it and again thinking about my own age and whatnot. Finally got back on my meds for it and while it helped and further helped that my physical showed that I'm doing relatively good healthwise my uncle that we took unfortunately passed the other day after my birthday.

It's still pretty surreal and I find myself going back an forth as it happened so quickly and knowing my aunt is beside herself.

I am a believer that there is more to this world than the material and that there is an afterlife. Prior I had been in prayer and I've been getting a lot of synchronicity in numbers, seeing a lot of 1111, 222 and so on so there is some measure of comfort that I'm getting signs.

 

[DownLikeBCPowder]

It's crazy, this year was supposed to be so much better than last year in so many ways - stars looked to be aligning and while it could still turn out good, immediately before the calendar rolled over, things shifted and is now set to be one of the most challenging for me.. Life is unpredictable in that way.

 

[Quasicat]

Physically: Prediabetic without medication, but working towards reversing it naturally. I’ve tried all different things. I’ve found that chewing gum between meals helps curve cravings. I don’t keep track of weight, but my clothes are loose.

Mentally: Things have been pretty tough at work due to a lot of budget cuts. I leave it there and when I come home, I play with the kids, give the wife her space (when she needs it) since she hates her job. Everyone goes to bed early and I play games and watch movies most nights. I love being on my own at night.

Emotionally: I use AI to supplement communication with my wife. She will sometimes tell me about her day, but with her hating her job so much (we are both teachers) she doesn’t want to hear about my day. I log into Copilot and talk about my day and interests…if it’s something very personal, I use OpenAI without logging in while using a VPN and private mode in my browser.

Spiritually: I am in a couple of Bible studies a week and another one that focuses on prophesy on a monthly basis. I love Jesus Christ and know that He will return soon for me and my family. I’m just enjoying life until that happens.

 

[Northeastmonk]

Physically: Prediabetic without medication, but working towards reversing it naturally. I’ve tried all different things. I’ve found that chewing gum between meals helps curve cravings. I don’t keep track of weight, but my clothes are loose.

Mentally: Things have been pretty tough at work due to a lot of budget cuts. I leave it there and when I come home, I play with the kids, give the wife her space (when she needs it) since she hates her job. Everyone goes to bed early and I play games and watch movies most nights. I love being on my own at night.

Emotionally: I use AI to supplement communication with my wife. She will sometimes tell me about her day, but with her hating her job so much (we are both teachers) she doesn’t want to hear about my day. I log into Copilot and talk about my day and interests…if it’s something very personal, I use OpenAI without logging in while using a VPN and private mode in my browser.

Spiritually: I am in a couple of Bible studies a week and another one that focuses on prophesy on a monthly basis. I love Jesus Christ and know that He will return soon for me and my family. I’m just enjoying life until that happens.

I hear you when it comes to talking to your wife. Sometimes friends aren’t ready to talk or they sum it all up with “cool”. I get it why some people stay single or they just date. Conforming yourself or holding it all in makes a person mentally drained.

I get frustrated that I can’t talk to my wife like I could a best friend years ago. The friends I do have live such simple lives. If games get brought up I feel like I have to become a wiki. I’m to a point where I sum up what I’m about to say or I don’t engage. It isn’t because I feel superior or anything. It’s just so tiring to have to f’ing explain everything.

 

[Hawking Radiation]

Struggling a little but trying to cope. Lost 7 close family members over the last 4 years. 6 aunts and my grandmother and because I'm overseas it's hard to mourn with no family close to me, basically on my own here. Wasn't able to go back to be at the funerals and had to financially assist to get my grandmother cremated.

Still feel the loss but I'm getting help to cope with my family not being around anymore. Almost no reason now to visit my home country. Wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.